Thursday, 20 February 2014


I was looking for a man with answers, what I did not know that neither answers had somebody to go to.

Answers, those I bore as truth, were just like me..
taken for granted
left behind
and alone.

Along the way only one answer did get lucky, one truth had me to go to..
that there is no God,
there's no such thing as a man with answers!

Monday, 27 January 2014

2013/2014 Winter Playlist

Tenhi – Rannalta Haettu (listen here)
Flackenbach – Eweroun (listen here)
Agalloch – Odal (listen here)
Dargaard - Ave Atque vale (listen here)
Jaaportit – Suon Sulaessa (listen here)
Ulver – Island (listen here)
:Of the Wand and the Moon – Sunspot (listen here)
Chelsea Wolfe – We Hit a Wall (listen here)
Kauan – Pirut (listen here)
Officium Triste – Your Heaven, My Underworld (listen here)
Autumn, Leaves, Scars – Things That Shall Be Burned (listen here)
October Tide – Adoring Ashes (listen here)
Eternal Tears of Sorrow – Angelheart, Ravenheart (Act I, II, and III) (listen here)
3rd and the Mortal – Why So Lonely (listen here)
Woods of Ypres – Alternate Ending (listen here)
30 Watt Sun – Carry Me Home (listen here)
Slowdive – When the Sun Hits (listen here)
Arctic Plateau – On a Sad Sunny Day (listen here)
Les Discrets – Le Mouvement Perpétuel (listen here)
Alcest - Les Voyages De L'Ame (listen here)
Deafheaven – Vertigo (listen here)
Summoning – Flammifer (listen here)
Ihsahn – Regen (listen here)
Grizzly Bear – All We Ask (listen here)
Mogwai – Special N (listen here)
Russian Circles – 1777 (listen here)
Lantlôs - .neon (listen here)
Amiina – Rugla (listen here)
Morne – A Distance (listen here)
Cult of Luna - Vicarious Redemption (listen here)
Six Organs of Admittance – When You Finally Return (listen here)
Opeth – Deliverance (listen here)
Dream Theatre – Illumination Theory (listen here)
Steven Wilson – The Raven That Refused to Sing (listen here)
The Ocean – Pelagial (Instrumental) (listen here)
El Morabba3 – Ma Indak Khabar (listen here)
Mazzy Star – Flying Low (listen here)

Listen to full Playlist here

Saturday, 26 October 2013

Silver Lines

Skins of silver lines..
My plain dress, you stripped..
Figures divine..
And if averse..
Your roots reach out for mine..

Thursday, 20 June 2013

Report: Global Olympic Dolphins Campaign In Egypt

Event: Global Olympic Dolphins Campaign Protests

Date: June 15th, 2013

Location: Aquarium Grotto Garden in Cairo, Egypt

Earth's oceans and the future of entire species stand at the verge of dilapidation as nations of the world feel supercilious enough to desecrate a content that covers 70% of the surface of the planet, and wipe out a whole species of sensitive, highly intelligent cetaceans that evolved over millions of years; namely dolphins & whales.

The whale & dolphin hunt is carried out by many countries like Denmark, Iceland, Norway and Japan – particularly Taiji- that drew the world's rage and resentment over its annually dolphin drive hunt for meat and trade after it was videoed and broadcasted live by Sea Shepherd. The world got to see the brutality of it, how families of dolphins were barbarically slaughtered while young ones were taken captive for dolphinariums. Thus, a global campaign dedicated to bringing the international condemnation of the Japanese whale and dolphin hunts to the attention of the International Olympic Committee in the run up to Japan’s 2020 Olympic bid –quoting OD- was launched and protests are being held on the 29th of June worldwide

In Egypt, due to the ongoing unrest, the protest was held on June 15th at Aquarium Grotto Garden حديقة الأسماك بالزمالك, organized by Dina Zulfikar (Animal Rights Activist), Mahmoud Fouad (Marine Ecologist & Nature Conservation Consultant), Dr. Kohar Garo (Professor of Zoology at Cairo UNI.) and Dr. Yasser Adel (Assistant Professor at Desert Research Center).

The event started by the arrival of guests: Dr. Moustafa Fouda (Director of Nature Conservation Sector, EEAA), Ms. Fatma Tammam (Head of Central Department of Giza Zoo), Mr. Gabriel Mikhail, Environmental Protection and Education Association (EPEA) team, and others.

Dr. Fouda firstly astonished the attendees with an EXELLENT detailed speech on the Egyptian godfather and pioneer of marine science Dr. Prof. Hamed Gohar (1907-1994) and his enormous contributions in exploring the Red Sea creatures, backed up by Ms. Tammam and Mr. Mikhail who shared memories and laughter with everyone. Dr. Fouda also pointed out Egypt's role and duty in enhancing its wildlife habitats that harbor some of the world's rarest animals.  
Dr. Fouda telling Dr. Gohar's terrific story of success

EPEA team, led by Mohammed Ismail, didn't miss a chance to spread enthusiasm and motivation while discussing their YES (Youths' Education on Sustainability) program which aims at spreading environmental awareness among the youth. It was really magnificent seeing such a promising group of young volunteers taking up the responsibility of educating others on the importance of maintaining a sound environment either through school visitations or field trips.
EPEA team

Zulfikar was next to speak of the objective behind this event, clarifying its true message that Japan should be getting by now. She wholeheartedly urged to NEVER buy a ticket to a dolphin show or an aquarium where cetaceans are held captive and abused for lifetime to entertain humans. Dina's message was loud and clear: dolphins, whales and animals in general are beings that have the right to live on this planet as much as we do, and live where they really belong; in their natural habitat. 
Dina explaining the event's goal 

Later on everybody was moving on into one of the garden dark caves. In front of a projector and a wide sheet screen all stood watching Dr. Yasser lecturing on desertification and other significant environmental issues that endanger our planet, and our role as humans in making changes before it's too late. Dr. Kohar followed with a spectacular lecture on Valley of the Whales in El Fayoum وادى الحيتان بالفيوم and its value of being a UNESCO World Heritage Site, accompanied by a great set of illustrations and real photos of the site and its fascinating monuments.
Dr. Yasser lecturing

Dr. Kohar lecturing on Wadi El Hitan (Valley of the Whales)
The day's treat, though, was getting to hear the youngest attendee's word. Beautiful son of Dr. Yasser Adel, Ahmed, made sure to leave a strong message to those in charge of or do promote for captivity; saying:
"Instead of killing and kidnapping dolphins & whales, why don't you establish more tourist destinations in the oceans where people get to watch them in their natural habitat and you could still make profit out of it?"

The event was ended by a short tour around the place and small discussions among dedicated environmentalists and animal advocates from all ages catching up on recent issues and tips to solve them as quick and safe as possible.

Related links:
*Petition (sign & share, please):
*Global Event Finder (participate and promote in you country, please): and

Tuesday, 11 June 2013

List of Vegan\Vegetarian Musicians

The approach of veganism has grown increasingly among different cultures over the past decade due to the continuous barbaric acts against our fellow animals that many people became aware of and even witnessed themselves. Some others chose to adopt a green-based diet to avoid any ongoing or future health issues and spare the next generation them, too. The knowledge of the necessity of a cruelty-free life and a whole-green food system can be seen promoted by a great deal of celebrities who we all love and appreciate, what makes them more of role models to their fans and societies.

As a music fanatic, I decided to make a list of famous musicians who are vegans\vegetarians (either for ethical or dietary purposes), as well as animal rights advocates and environmentalists. This is our thank-you to all of them for being devoted, inspiring and thoughtful of innocent beings in need of our compassion and mercy.

- Sir Paul McCartney of The Beatles [¹]
- Krist Novoselic of Nirvana
- Robert Smith of The Cure
- Peter Gabriel of Genesis
- Robin Gibb of Bee Gees
- Thom Yorke of Radiohead
- Peter Murphy of Bauhaus
- Siouxsie Sioux of Siouxise and the Banshees
- Antony Kiedis of Red Hot Chili Peppers
- John Marr of The Smiths & Modest Mouse [²]
- Ben Gibbard of Death Cab for Cutie & The Postal Service
- Tim Commerford of Rage Against The Machine
- Robin Pechnold of Fleet Foxes
- All members of 30 Seconds To Mars
- Sherif Sami of Go! Save The Hostages

Leto: actor, musician and animal rights activist


- Bryan Adams
- Moby
- Pink
- Justin Timberlake
- Shania Twain
- Avril Lavigne
- Joy Valencia


- Geezer Butler & Bill Ward of Black Sabbath
- Kirk Hammett of Metallica
- Attila Csihar of Mayhem
- Bill Steer of Napalm Death
- Gaahl of Gorgoroth [³]
- Rikki Rockett of Poison
- Kin Owen & Jiff Walker of Carcass
- Rob Zombie
- Mille Petrozza of Kreator
- Ville Valo of HIM
- Marco Benevento of The Foreshadowing & How Like A Winter
- Derrick Green of Sepeltura
- Serj Tankian of System of a Down
- Angela Gossow of Arch Enemy
- Liv Kristine of Theatre of Tragedy
- Alissa White-Gluz of The Agonist
- Fallon Bowman of Kittie
- Chris Adler of Lamb of God
- Brian Fair of Shadows Fall
- Oliver Skyes of Bring Me The Horizon
- 4 members (out of 5) of Between The Buried And Me
- Jona Weinhofen of Bleeding Through & I Killed The Prom Queen
- All members of Heaven Shall Burn
- Ted Kirkpatrick of Tourniquet [4]


Heaven Shall Burn


1. Watch "Glass Walls", a documentary on factory farmed animals narrated by Paul McCartney.

2. Watch Modest Mouse's "King Rat", a music video opposing illegal commercial whale hunt and directed by deceased actor Heath Ledger. The song's 1st month of iTunes purchases was donated to Sea Shepherd Conservation Society.

3. Not confirmed.

4. The American Christian Metal band addresses animal abuse in their lyrics and has a tribute song "86 Bullets" to Tyke the circus elephant who was shot 86 times. The band also runs a Facebook page The Tourniquet Ark in association with The Barking Army, promoting awareness against animal cruelty.

*Special thanks goes to Francesco Sosto of The Foreshadowing and Ted Kirkpatrick of Tourniquet.

Saturday, 18 May 2013

I Love You But I've Chosen The Fuckery!

Broken promises, lame excuses, sincere apologies.

And it’s always too late.

Probably not the best place to admit to the guilt of me destroying everything that I hold dear but to be completely frank I am one socially timid chick. People intimidate the dickens out of me, and I’d rather place my head between a lion’s fangs than hand my feelings over to someone.

Keeping promises is never easy, especially for those who have a habit of suppressing their emotions for fear of getting hurt, let alone walking away when things get real. I’m not able to keep my word once I get the scare of rejection or heartbreaks. And let’s be clear on one thing here; whether one commits to their promises or break them, whether they choose to stay or leave and whether they are nice or insolent, heartbreaks are mandatory.

My only excuse is that I am scared. And it surprises me that it never occurs to anybody to make me feel otherwise, without having to ask. People who take the lead, do they exist? No, everyone is as scared as I am. Everyone is blinded by their own fears. Funnily enough, as a child I didn’t get scared when I cuddled a tiger, I am now not scared to swim out to sea as far as possible, to speed up on the highway, to break in the scariest places ever. Adrenaline rushes are just my thing. I even got over my claustrophobia and panic attacks, all by myself. So why can’t I get over the fear of people? Why can’t we all?!

Self-excuse is, though, I’m too foresighted that I see how things are going to end before they even get started. Basically, I opt out all the possibilities and chances that something might wind up the way I’d never expect it to do. Missing out on all the fun, being severely cautious. That’s living in its worst shape-- in fact, that’s not living at all.

Now, let’s do the apologies. Let’s tell everybody and ourselves of how sorry we are. And how can you know if it is sorrow or pity that I feel? You can’t.  So, for whoever is reading this, I’m sorry for being difficult. I’m sorry I was being emotionally scant. I’m sorry for not sticking around even though I secretly did. I did love you, I do love you but I’ve chosen this endless mental fuckery.

Thursday, 16 May 2013

Six Organs of Admittance & When The Killing's Done: Two That Perfectly Mix

I find not a single whit of exaggeration in saying “art is the answer”; because art is really the answer to everything. It is a fact I've been made certain of throughout the years and probably the only thing in life I am certain of there is.

Every now and then I tend to separate myself from the living and dwell in my own shell for a while with music, books, movies and my 2 furry kids. It’s in such times that I start re-evaluating me and my actions just to make sure my life is headed the right way.  And, every now and then comes along a piece of art that helps me through such times and shows me things differently-- in more artistic way, to be precise. 

Not long ago that I was searching for some Psychedelic\Folk similar to Storm Corrosion and Jack Rose when I ran into a name that had my attention “Six Organs of Admittance”. And after going through the interesting fan shouts on the band’s page, I needed to give it a listen and see what these guys had to offer.

Along the way came a book which I actually judged by its cover. On the back cover it says -quoting- “How can you talk about being civil when innocent animals are being tortured to death? Civil? I’ll be civil when the killing’s done”. Of course I couldn't resist the urge and barged myself into the cashier with a shut-up-and-take-my-money kind of look on my face.

I’m not going to talk technical here. I’m not going to review neither the music nor the book; all I’m going to do is to share with you the atmosphere those two created together, an atmosphere I would heartedly say it to be “spiritual”. . . IMAGINE THIS: Folk\Psychedelic music, a book that narrates nature, the smell of incense mixed with the smell of coffee, nighttime, alone.

I know, I know!

When I’m asked about a certain music I’m a fan of, I always give the answer that both satisfies and informs, but that’s not the case with Six Organs of Admittance. I didn't pay much attention to the band’s history, description of their music and all that jazz; I just set the player on shuffle and let the music flow. I didn't memorize any of the albums, years and barely the titles, and that was the beauty of it. All I had to do is just sit back and enjoy the kind of music that invaded my within.  

When The Killing’s Done was nothing that I expected, everything about the book from the outside says it’s about nature defenders and animal activists. Well, it is, but it’s mostly about their lives and inner conflicts over what the right thing to do is. Author T.C. Boyle gives a very accurate depiction of the islands where the adventure took place, and—that, along with the music, was a complete manifestation of how I’d want life to be: natural, adventurous and artistic.

It took me 2 months to finish reading the novel; frankly I was procrastinating because who would want such an experience to end so fast? After this, and of course after reading any book and getting caught up in the trance of any music, I’d feel a little bit closer to myself. A lot of things fell into place. Mind was clear at last. I don’t think there is a better psychiatric than art.

Saturday, 11 May 2013


She’s got her senses bent down at her feet..
She’s got her thoughts ensilenced..
Her words defined..
And whispers into her mind unleashed..

She’s got her lurk presence keeping company..
She’s got her absence in pending stiffly..
This slender wait..
And wonders of her retorted agony..

She’s got a sheen pale..
The moonlight..
The clouds afloat..
Over her said and thought..
She’s got a fear in motion..
The swindling ocean..
Her self pried..
When self was all she sought!

Sunday, 5 May 2013

In Animus

Ever I grow restless of thy rigid breaths..
Ever thou never cease..
And of hearts, of passion we shall not confess..
Art thoughts built not to please..

Stirred we fall as to tempt the animus..
Boiling soils, waters in hell..
Delusions tumbling like castles of sand..
The reeling voids we ought to fill..

After all, these vices shall wittily smolder..
For my ego I cannot swallow..
Hunger do I for thy frozen shoulder..
Care do thee for a light in the morrow?!

Wednesday, 17 April 2013

"Human" He Said.

“Pathetic, I know” she said, resentful of the way she felt.

“Human, you mean” he said, with hands reaching to the small of her back.

“Human is shame” she said.

“Human bleeds, human deceives, human afflicts and never completes”

“Because, human is imperfect, my love” he said, pulling her closer.

“Human rebuilds, human forgives”

“Human is no cage to flee”

Now lips to lips, they sneak a kiss.

Now human is all she wants to be.